Exercise

I've known that I would have to start exercising eventually, when I first began NS I was too tired and too drug out and just generally at loath to actually get sweaty. So now I've dropped 40lbs that I was carrying around and have no excuse for not exercising now. I don't want to be a fat girl in a thinner body, but rather a fit girl in a thin body. Not something that's gonna happen without moving my ass off the couch.

So today I ordered a heart rate monitor and something that I am "very" excited about called Yourself!Fitness it's video game for PS2, XBox or PC platforms. Basically, it's got rave reviews on Amazon, and when it does is allow you to input your personal stats, then gives you a fitness test. The "Personal Trainer" then lays out a routine for your long term goal, encouraging you and reprimand you when you skip days. There is also a YOGA portion for stretching and relaxation. Every 10 times your do it the game tests your fitness level to see if you can increase the levels of your workout.

I am very excited, and can't wait for my shipment!

Thin Envy

Today was all right; I didn't smoke and stayed on plan with my NS all day. I felt less overwhelmed and down today. Sometimes when I think of the amount of weight I still have to loose it seems just huge, insurmountable and then I worry I won't be able to keep it off if I ever get there. When I look at peoples profiles on NS I see people who started so much sooner then I did, at 180 or even 150 and I feel envy even though I know I shouldn't. I also tend to envy people who are further along on their programs than I am. It's not that I am not happy for everyone, I just wish I was already thin.

Looking better...

This is my weight loss and stopping smoking journal. I began 3/9/06 and have lost 40 lbs. I began quitting smoking today.

When I began loosing weight, I looked forward to loosing the amount I have lost so desperately. However, I still look and feel fat when I look in the mirror. I have been told I look "better" but I think in answer to that, "Compared too what?"

Anyway, I started at 216 lbs and I now weigh 176 lbs with a goal weight of 140, however, I am beginning to wonder if I need to move my goal lower , I don't know if I will feel sexy at 140.